Most people are surprised when I tell them I’ve never snorted coke off a model’s stomach in Brazil, that I haven’t puffed pot, that I barely, rarely drink ____tinis.大多数人都感到惊讶，当我告诉他们我从来没有吸入焦炭小康示范的胃在巴西，我没有膨锅，我几乎没有，也很少喝酒____tinis 。 They don’t understand how I’ve kept my D.A.R.E.他们不明白我如何仍保留着我不敢 promise but say things in public that make people look at me like I speak French.承诺，但说的东西在公开场合，使人们看我像我讲法语。

So when I considered generic Prozac — the essence of doctor-prescribed Fancy Pink Pills for Chicks™ — to kill my PMDD (short for “Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder,” short for motherfucking bad PMS that turns my Porsche ‘07 911 brain into an ‘89 Honda Civic), I questioned how the drug would do me.因此，当我认为是通用百忧解-本质医生处方花式粉红丸鸡苗™ -杀死我的p m dd（简称"经前抑郁症" ，简称mo therfucking坏制订，可以将我的保时捷20 07年的9 1 1大脑成为一个'8 9本田思域） ，我质疑如何药物会尽我。

But after months of capping six soy lattes with twenty Red Bulls without denting my mental fatigue, I cash in my prescription.但经过数个月的上限， 6个酱油lattes与二十红色公牛无凹我的心理疲劳，我的现金，在我的药方。 I scan the tiny print Rite Aid provided: “Pills may lessen sexual desire,” — I laugh, I doubt it — “may cause anxiety, may cause suicidal thoughts, may cause depression.扫描小小的打印成年礼提供的援助： "丸，可降低性欲， " -我笑，我对此表示怀疑- "可能造成的焦虑，可能导致自杀的想法，可能导致抑郁症。 If you hear ringing in your ears and want to stab someone with your five-inch stiletto, call your physician.”如果你能听到铃声，在你的耳朵，要刺有人与你的5英寸stiletto ，打电话给你的医生" 。

Fascinating.引人入胜。

I swallow a baby blue pill for breakfast.我吞下婴儿蓝丸早餐。 And I still feel tired after 2 p.m., after three trips to Starbucks, after a designer energy drink, I still–我仍然感到疲倦后，下午2时，经过3个班次，以星巴克，经过设计师能量饮料，但我仍然-

Haven’t heard from The Boy all day.从来没有听过从男孩一整天。

I grope my iPhone, and I worry as I hear his voice mail answer. i摸索我的iphone的，我很担心，因为我没有听到他的语音信箱的答复。 “Normally you call me every time you take a piss,” I say. "通常，你叫我每一次当你采取独立私校" ，我说。 “I am concerned for your bladder.” "我很关心你的膀胱" 。

I hang up, and the sun sinks with my mood, and I’m distracted from business: my inner bohemian wants a sick day while my internal yuppie whips her to keep working in the sweatshop of my mind. i坑了，阳光汇同我的心情，以及我自己的注意力从业务：我的内心波西米亚想要一个有病天，而我的内部优皮鞭子，她为此而继续努力，在血汗工厂的我的想法。

But instead of fingers flying over my MacBook, super marketing myself, I find myself in a super market buying Fruit Rollups, pressed pieces of sugar in tie-dyes of happy, the opposite of how I feel.而是手指飞越我的macbook ，超级推销自己，我发现自己在一个超级市场买水果汇总，压片糖铁染料的快乐，相反的是如何，我觉得。 I cruise back home, and realize I still haven’t heard from The Boy. i邮轮回到家里，并实现我还没有听说，从男童的消息。 A piece of paper floats into my lap and I squeal like it’s a spider and barely control a swerve, and I wonder if I’m on edge from the Prozac, I wonder if The Boy has been held hostage and sodomized in The Castle by someone other than me, I wonder if–一张纸花车到我的圈速，我尖叫想这是蜘蛛，勉强控制一次交手，我不知道如果我是对的优势，从百忧解，我不知道该名男童已被挟持和鸡奸在城堡由有人以外的话，我不知道-

Riiing. riiing 。 Riiing. riiing 。

He’s calling?他的呼唤？ “Satan speaking,” I answer. "魔鬼说， "我的答案。

“Hey, fucker.” His voice husks happy, I wonder if the terrorists holding a gun to his head have demanded he act natural. "嘿， fucker "他的声音外皮快乐，我不知道如果恐怖分子持用枪顶着他的头部，要求他的行为是自然的。 “I just got in from working the yard, baby.” "我只是在工作，从院子里，宝宝" 。

Of course.当然。 Weeding, enjoying green grass, “Getting dirty without me?” I ask.除草，享受绿草， "越来越肮脏，没有我吗？ "我问。 “Did you dig out a mud wrestling pit?” "你有没有挖掘出泥摔跤坑" ？

“It was great. "这是伟大的。 You don’t know how satisfying it is to work the land you own.”你不知道如何满足它的工作，土地，你自己的" 。

I imagine him shirtless, sunning, his six-pack sweating.我想象他shirtless ，新宁，他的6套出汗。 “I’m sure. "我敢肯定。 Did you pay yourself $5.50 per hour for this work?” We talk small while I land home: he’s asking about my day and how I spent it, and I tell him all I did was touch myself to Prince songs; I skip over my science experiment with my brain.你有没有支付自己5.50美元每小时，为这项工作？ ： "我们谈小我虽然土地主页：他的要求对我的一天，我如何用它，我告诉他我所做的是触摸自己的歌曲王子，我跳过我的科学实验与我的大脑。 But as we keep chatting I pour out the month’s worth of pastel pills into the toilet and flush.但正如我们经常聊天i倾诉了一个月的价值pastel丸到厕所和冲洗。 I decide I’ll control my mind myself, I’ll skip taking the passenger seat while some chemical is the driver, I–我决定我会控制我的心我自己吧，我跳过以乘客座位，而有些化学品是司机，我-

Wonder if it’s too late for another soy latte and an espresso-laced brownie.不知是否太迟了，再酱油后者和一个浓缩咖啡股价布朗。

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